Again by Yui

Again by Yui
Opening song (1st) for the anime Fullmetal Alchemist Brotherhood

Kanji

梦の続き　追(お)いかけていたはずなのに
曲(ま)がりくねった
细(ほそ)い道　人につまずく
あの顷にみたいにって　戻(もど)りたい訳(わけ)じゃないの
なくしてきた空を　探してる
わかってくれますように
犠牲(ぎせい)になったように　悲しい颜はやめてよ
罪(つみ)の最后は涙じゃないよ
ずっと苦しく背负(せお)ってくんだ
出口(でぐち)见えない感情迷路(かんじょうめいろ)に
谁を待ってるの
白いノートに缀(つづ)ったように
もっと素直に吐(は)き出(だ)したいよ
何から　逃(のが)れたいんだ
……现実ってやつか?
叶えるために　生きてるんだって
忘れちゃいそうな　夜の真(ま)ん中
无难(ぶなん)になんて　やってらんないから
……帰る场所もないの
この想いを　消してしまうには
まだ人生长いでしょ　(I’m on the way)
懐(なつ)かしくなる
こんな痛みも歓迎(かんげい)じゃん
谢(あやま)らなくちゃいけないよね　ああ　ごめんね
うまく言えなくて　心配かけたままだったね
あの日抱(かか)えた全部　明日抱(かか)える全部
顺番(じゅんばん)つけたりはしないから
わかってくれますように
そっと目を闭じたんだ　
见たくないものまで见えんだもん
いらない噂(うわさ)にちょっと
初めて闻く発言(へつげん)どっち
向かい合ったら友达だって　嘘はやめてね
深(ふか)いハートが苛立(いらだ)つように
体(からだ)ん中燃(も)えているんだ
本当は期待してんの
……现実ってやつか？
叶えるために　生きてるんだって
叫(さけ)びたくなるよ　闻こえていますか？
无难(ぶなん)になんて　やってられないから
……帰る场所もないの
优しさには　いつも感谢してる
だから强くなりたい　(I’m on the way)
进(すす)むために
敌(てき)も味方(みかた)も歓迎(かんげい)じゃん
どうやって次(つぎ)のドア开(あ)けるんだっけ　考えてる
もう引(ひ)き返(かえ)せない物语(ものがたろ)始まってるんだ
目を覚ませ　目を覚ませ
この想いを　消してしまうには
まだ人生长いでしょ
やり残(のこ)してること　やり直してみたいから
もう一度行こうか
叶えるために　生きてるんだって
叫(さけ)びたくなるよ　闻こえていますか
无难(ぶなん)になんて　やってらんないから
……帰る场所もないの
优しさには　いつも感谢してる
だから强くなりたい　(I’m on the way)
懐(なつ)かしくなる
こんな痛みも歓迎(かんげい)じゃん


Romaji

yume no tsuduki
oikaketeita hazu nano ni
magari kunetta hosoimichi
nin ni tsumazuku
ano koroni mitai nitte
modoritai wake janai no
nakushi tekita sora wo
sagashiteru
wakatte kuremasu youni
gisei ninatta youni kanashii kao hayameteyo

tsumi no saigo ha namida janaiyo
zutto kurushi ku seotte kunda
deguchi mie nai kanjou meiro ni
dare wo matte rono
shiroi no-to ni tsuzutta youni
motto sunao ni haki dashi taiyo
nanika ra nogare tainda
genjitsu teyatsuka?

kanae rutameni iki terun datte
wasure chaisouna yoru no manaka
bunan ni nante yatteran naikara
… … kaeru basho monaino
kono omoi wo keshi teshimauniha
mada jinsei nagai desho? ( I’m on the way)

natsu kashi kunaru
konna ita mimo kangei jan

ayamara nakuchai kenaiyone
Aa gomenne
umaku ie nakute shinpai kaketa mama dattane
ano nichi kaeta zenbu
ashita kae ru zenbu
junban tsuketari ha shinaikara
wakatte kuremasu youni
sotto me wo toji tanda
mita kunaimonomade miendamon

iranai uwasa nichotto
hajimete kiku hetsugen docchi
mukai atta ra tomodachi datte
uso haya metene
fukai ha-to ga iradatsu youni
karada n naka moete irunda
hontou ha kitaishi tenno
… … genjitsu tteyatsuka?

kanae rutameni iki terundatte
sakebi takunaruyo kiko etei masuka?
bunan ninante yatte rarenaikara
… …kaeru basho monaino
yasashi saniha itsumo kanshashi teru
dakara tsuyoku naritai ( I’m on the way)

susumu tameni
teki mo mikata mo kangei jan
douyatte tsugino doa ake rundakke kangae teru
mou hiki kaese nai monogataro hajima tterunda

me wo sama se me wo sama se

kono omoi wo keshi teshimauniha
mada jinsei nagai desho?

yari nokoshi terukoto
yari naoshi temitaikara

mou ichido iko uka
kanae rutameni iki terundatte
sakebita kunaruyo kiko eteimasuka
bunan ninante yatteran naikara
… … kaeru basho monaino
yasashisaniha itsumo kanshashi teru
dakara tsuyoku naritai ( I’m on the way )
natsukashi kunaru
konna ita mimo kangei jan


Chinese Translation (中文翻译)

梦的待续 本应继续追寻
这条曲折窄小的道路容易使人跌倒
其实并不想再回到 像那个时候一样
只是为了寻找那片已经失去了的天空而已
请慢慢地开始理解吧 别再露出那如同受害者般的悲伤的样子
罪孽的最后并不是落泪啊 而是要一直都背负着痛苦
在看不到出口的感情迷宫中 在等待着谁？
像在白色的笔记上书写一样 本想更加坦率的说出来
可是在逃避什么呢 是现实吗?
为了实现愿望 而生存下去
想已忘却了一般 在深夜的中心里
不会找理由逃避的 … …已经无路可退了
在这份思念消失之前 人生还很漫长吧？
如此怀念的 这种痛为何不受欢迎呢？
不得不道歉呢 啊啊 对不起了
虽然不能很好地表达 让你一直都挂心呢
那一天所担负的全部 明天将要所担负的全部
是不会一一顺序的
请慢慢地开始理解吧 只要轻轻地闭上眼
不想看到的东西就会看不到了
不需要的流言 最初听到的是哪个?
见面两次就是朋友了 不要再说这种谎言了
赤红的心急不可耐 全身都像被燃烧起来一样
真正地 期待着的 … …难道是现实?
为了实现愿望 而生存下去
想要放声大喊出来 是否能听见呢
不会找理由逃避的 … …已经无路可退了
对你的温柔 我一直都很感激 因此想要变得更强
为了能继续前进 无论敌人还是伙伴都同样欢迎
要怎样才能打开下一道门呢 考虑了吗?
已经无法回去了 故事已经开始了
觉醒吧 觉醒吧
在这份思念消失之前 人生还很漫长吧？
未能完成的事情 还想重新再来一次
再一次开始吧
为了实现愿望 而生存下去
想要放声大喊出来 是否能听见呢
不会找理由逃避的 … …已经无路可退了
对你的温柔 我一直都很感激 因此想要变得更强
如此怀念的 这种痛为何不受欢迎呢？


English Translation

I should have been chasing the continuation of my dream,
but I got distracted by the people on this thin winding road.
It’s not that I want to go back to the days of back then,
I’m just searching for the sky I’ve lost…
Please understand.
Stop showing that sad and victimized-looking face…
Tears are not the end of crime…
they’re the painful reminder of it…
I can’t see the exit of this sensitive maze,
who am I wating for?
Like the writing in my white notebook,
I want to bring out my honest self.
What was I running from?
…from reality?
To make my wish come true,
I’ll contine living,
it seems I’ll forget everything within the center of the night,
but I won’t make a reason to escape.
…There isn’t a place to go back to…
I’ll erase this feeling…
I still have a long life don’t I?
I’m missing the feeling…
so this pain is also welcomed!
I must apologize…
Aa, I’m sorry…
I can’t say it clearly,
I’ve always made you worry haven’t I?
Back then you accepted everything,
and in the future, you’ll accept everything.
I won’t make a waiting list…
Please understand.
I gently closed my eyes
and I couldn’t even see the things
I didn’t want to see.
From the useless rumors,
which one was it that I heard of first?
“We were friends after the second meeting”??
Stop lying…
My red heart irritated me,
it burned up my whole body.
Truth is…
I had some hope…
…from reality?
To make my wish come true,
I’ll continue living,
I want to scream out…
can you hear me?
I won’t make a reason to escape.
…There isn’t a place to go back to…
I’m thankful for your kindness,
that’s why I want to be stronger.
To continue forward,
I welcome both enemies and allies.
How do I open the next door?
Are you thinking of a way?
We can’t go back again,
the story has already started.
Be Awake Be Awake
I’ll erase this feeling…
I still have a long life don’t I?
The thing I left behind once again…
I want to try to re-do it once again…
Let’s try once again.
To make my wish come true,
I’ll continue living,
I want to scream out…
can you hear me?
I won’t make a reason to escape.
…There isn’t a place to go back to…
I’m thankful for your kindness,
that’s why I want to be stronger.
I’m missing the feeling…
so this pain is also welcomed!






Video

For TV size opening in Fullmetal Alchemist

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=dPB2Z1wd7WM

For real PV ( Yui )

http://you.video.sina.com.cn/b/26958732-1233430282.html


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It’s a nice song to listen to. The content ,the meaning of the lyrics really suitable to the anime, FULLMETAL ALCHEMIST. It’s best describe the story of this anime, of course especially Edward Elric.
I like the part
“kono omoi wo keshi teshimauniha
mada jinsei nagai desho?
yari nokoshi terukoto
yari naoshi temitaikara “

When first time I heard it ( TV size(the beginning part) ) and I felt that I must download this song, is not bad in my first impression. Then, I listen several times, and now is one of my favorite anime songs.

Last Night in BU with Arios

11 Dec 2009.
This was my last day in that “little” BU.
That day I gave my time to myself. What to do??

After practice violin a while, I started wonder if I can get some sheet music that I haven’t play before. Initially I wanted to go One Utama, but I decided to go The Curve that side because there got Popular which certainly had what I want. And I got 2 magazines. >.

Then, I started to “lepak” in toy department wanted to find Gundam( either Kyrios or Arios ( own by Allelujah Haptism in Gundam 00) first, the others may be will get it in future). Kyrios I found in Parkson 1U while Arios in Metrojaya The Curve. Arios is more expensive than Kyrios. Both model I also want, after hesitated for sometime, I decided to buy Arios on some factors( one of it was I lazy to walk to 1U, tired already). It cost around RM99.90 with 20% discount(can see how crazy I am). It is the first original Bandai Gundam I have!( Made In Japan, not in China like the model I had before this) Of course there are many different in their quality.

I started assembling Arios at around 7.30pm.

This is the whole box.

Open it.

Ops…it’s written in Japanese…never mind …at least I can understand a bit

Wonder how long will I take to finish it^^

This is the chest part.

Wow…this is the head!! See the eyes!

This is the left arm.

Put the head to the body…upper part is finished!

Take it out…need to be careful …if not it will break

This is the right leg.

This is the pelvis part(I wonder can said like this…)

95% finished!! With the right leg fix to it.

I don’t how to call this…put at the back one… Ah!! This thing had GN Drive inside!!

With these…ARIOS IS COMPLETED!!

These are the weapons of Arios.

These are all the pose of Arios!! See!! SO COOL!! >.<

These are the flight mode!!

It can be a weapon too!! The front part…

Fight with Sandrock , the gundam own by Quatre in Gundam Wing ( the model that I brought, not original, made in China one , quite cheap one)

It finished at around 11pm. Then it took 3 and a half hours to completed!!

I'm so happy to have it!!!

Father's Day

It's 21st June again, which is known as Father's Day.
I had been not celebrate it for many years, not really can recalled back, perhaps never celebrated before. Even though if I want to celebrate now, it will never has the chance again.
As the EaLD's assignment wanted me to do a poem, I hardly can get an idea other than the strongest feeling that will continue existing in me forever, which is lost the one that you loved. Therefore, I had wrote this poem to him( after several editing).

This poem entitled 'As The Lightning Flashed Across The Dark ' (I don't know to shorten the title, so just take out one of the sentences in the poem.)

You stretched out your robust arms,

when I shattered into pieces.

You carried me on the back,

when I was facing giants in life.

You held me in your arms,

when sorrow struck my heart.

You always had been there for me.

As the lightning flashed across the dark,

It seemed like it happened a night before,

Waited until you came back at midnight,

Watched them helped you changed your clothes,

Took turns to feed you,

Watched you slipped away in the dark parade,

And never walked out from there again.

I know nothing is going to be alright,

But, I know you will look down

On me from above,

always.

I know I can't wrote a good poem because my English really worse than a primary student in the urban area. I know my marks also very terrible if this is the assignment.
But, what I concerned the most is I finally can wrote out one poem about him. I know if I recite the poem to him , he won't be understand what I talk about, even a single word. I think most of my friends or classmates or anyone surround me don't know it and I think they also won't believe it. He actually was uneducated, even a class . But, I think he should be able to understand the sincere and true feeling of his own daughter. I really hope that he would be able to reincarnate to a better life, very far more better than the one's that he gone through , which was so hard for him.

Other than that, I also want to sing for song for him(which now I think is really speak out my heart)(which I also wrote in other blog)

Bye Bye by MARIAH CAREY

I love you always

Persuasive Speech

Yesterday, my class did the EaLD speech , but my name list is at the bottom , so it can't reached me. But, I was too desperate for get rid of the stress , so I asked for volunteer for did the speech. I need to find a classroom for it and I think it had cause quite a bit troublesome for Ms Chan and Mr Lee also. Mr Lee was because he need to find the empty classroom(German class and not empty at all) for us. For Ms Chan, I felt sorry for her because I saw she was only eat the mee cup to fill her stomach during lunch(time factor) . Sometime, we will think that why so many assignment(especially english) , but why not we think the other way round? As I can see, the lecturers are even more busy marking the over hundreds or thousands of assignments.

Anyway, I had done badly for my speech, I actually expected higher . But, what to do? I wonder I did not did it yesterday, what will be today performance? May be it will be better. But, it had happened already ... ... I can't do any things(unless if I had the time machine(crazy thinking)). Sometime, I feel that I am quite stupid in do the decision. My decisions so far no one time was good. Almost all end with worst ending.

Let's don't care about it first.

This is my speech for the euthanasia:

Good Morning to everyone. Today I would like to talk about euthanasia , it should or should not be legalized in Australia.

As we all know, In 1995, the world's first euthanasia legislation, the Rights of terminally Ill Act 1995, was passed in the Northern Territory of Australia. Four patients died under the Act, using a euthanasia device designed by Dr Philip Nitschke also known as ‘Dr. Death”. The legislation was overturned in 1997 by Australia’s Federal Parliament in 1997.
People around the world are arguing about euthanasia, debate are still going on. I agree that it should not be legalized, as there are some reason in human, moral values and religion teaching.
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Many people support the right of a terminally ill patient to die - but what if the right becomes an obligation?
As an evidence from Holland which active euthanasia is legal there , A recent Dutch government investigation of euthanasia has come up with some disturbing findings. In 1990, 1,030 Dutch patients were killed without their consent.
The Dutch experience seems to demonstrate that the "right to die" can soon turn into an obligation. This concept is dangerous, and you could find yourself the victim if Euthanasia becomes legal in Australia.

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Second , it will become a means of health care cost containment. When some thing is legalized, it certainly will be abused by people. Legalized euthanasia raises the potential for a profoundly dangerous situation in which doctors could find themselves far better off financially if a seriously ill or disabled person "chooses" to die rather than receive long-term care.

"...physician-assisted suicide, if it became widespread, could become a profit-enhancing tool for big HMOs. "

Furthermore, if the government is paying for treatment and care of the patient and they choose to cut off the cost for Savings, they will certainly replace them with the "treatment" of death.

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Many People say that voluntary euthanasia will not lead to involuntary euthanasia. They only look at things as simply black and white. In real life there would be millions of situations where cases and here is one example:
An elderly person in a nursing home, who is illiterate, is asked to sign a form consenting to be killed. In fact they don’t know what is happening? Is this voluntary or involuntary? Will they be protected by the law? Once one signature can sign away a person's life, what can be as strong a protection as the current absolute prohibition on direct killing?

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All human life is valuable and worth living, regardless of state of mind or other quality of life concerns. Many people argue that it is not worth because of the financial burden. But, we can't judge a human life with money. There are still other ways to get the financial support such as donation from the government, the family of the patient, organization and public.

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Saving people are doctors professional roles .What if a doctor say to his patients the only way is die? Some people will doubt that are they try their best to save the patients?
As in The Hippocratic Oath ,“I will give no deadly medicine to any one if asked, nor suggest any such counsel”…In this oath, it obvious that they will not help a patient to die. And there is one more verse , ….

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What if someone stands to inherit one million dollars when their parents dies? Might the heir not find it tempting to nudge them in the direction of accepting a lethal injection?

[Actually here I want to put my stupid idea of my drawing ....but in the end I didn't put, I felt so weird.
Here are two cartoon strips to illustrate this case. Property, money ,company from his father as soon as possible.

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Let’s looked at the stance of religion on the issue of euthanasia.

In Islam, They believe that all human life is sacred because it is given by Allah, and that Allah decides how long each of us will live. Human beings should not interfere in this.

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In buddha, euthanasia is wrong, because it demonstrates that one's mind is in a bad state and that one has allowed physical suffering to cause mental suffering.

Meditation and the proper use of pain killing drugs should enable a person to attain a state where they are not in mental pain, and so no longer contemplate euthanasia or suicide.
Buddhists might also argue that helping to end someone's life is likely to put the helper into a bad mental state, and they do harm to the other people which is not good and they will suffer the consequence when died.

Buddhists regard death as a transition. The deceased person will be reborn to a new life, whose quality will be the result of their karma.The problem is that shortening life interferes with the working out of karma, and alters the karmic balance resulting from the shortened life.

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Christians are mostly against euthanasia. They believe that life is given by God and God has created human beings as in stated in the Bible, Genesis. Since birth and death are part of the life processes which God has created, so we should respect them .therefore no human being has the authority to take the life of any innocent person, even if that person wants to die. It is only God, and God alone, who has the unquestionable power to take life.

There is no support in Scripture for ending the life of an innocent person simply because of sickness, old age, or disease. In fact, God’s Word shows that the weak are to be cared for, not murdered. See 1 Thessalonians 5:14. Beside, as stated in the Bible, one of the ten commandment , “ You must not murder.” Thus, euthanasia can be consider as sin.

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Finally, as we all know, one way of euthanasia is the feeding tube removed. Just imagine, if our beloved one is in the condition."How can we stand by and watch them starve to death? We love and care about them. I cannot walk down the hall knowing I am killing the one that I loved.
Before I end my speech, I only have one sentence to all of you.
If the mind keeps thinking you’ve had enough, but the heart keeps telling you don’t give up
Keep in mind there will be miracle in life. Have Faith.Thank You.
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Anyway, I think I had done my best already, perhaps next time can get a higher mark.

Happy Mothers' Day

It's finally come to the second week of May, Mothers' Day.

The modern Mother's Day holiday was created by Anna Jarvis, as a day to honor mothers and motherhood; especially within the context of families, and family relationships.

This year mothers' Day I was not able to go back home to celebrate, I felt so sorry. But I had post a card to my mother (although I know that it can't reach in time) at least I had something to my mother. The card is so expensive that I was shocked, as I just took it to cashier. But, I think it should be okay because it worth. It sure will be a joke for my eldest brother as he always laugh at me. But I don't care, I just want to do what I want.

I know that I should treasure my mother by now, every day, every second, every moment .
I will try to do what she want.
I will try to do what she not able to do.
I will try to give her the best that I can.
I will try to not make her dissappointed.

But, I know I had done many things that she don't like me to do.
I' m so sorry for her.
But, I can't talk to her what I had done.
I 'm scared she will be hurt.

I had been so naughty till now.
I had been made the biggest sin in my life.
I can't turn back. I have not chance to turn back, what I can do is continue the journey, the journey that I will never feel meaningful.

What I want to say to my mum is sorry and wish you happy mothers' day.

Korean Food Fair

I always go to One Utama, because it is so near to my house, 5minutes cycle and walk into the shopping centre. Every time have any special event that I like I will go at least 2 times.

Last time was the Asimo robot, and I answered the question and I got a pen with a tiny Asimo figure as the cap. This time, was Korean Food Fair. I was impressed by the band "Flowers" when they performed the music which were the combination of traditional and modern musical instruments. I like music very much and I had recorded it although I need to lift my hand to hold the camera for almost 20 minutes.

I found that I getting closer to music. More toward classical.

Dinner and 60 Earth Hour

It's really was a busy day for me(though I everyday also very busy), but I felt that let something different in my life will be interesting. Yes, it was an another memorable day for me.

It's actually was the 60 Earth Hour. My life group leader was invited us to go to have dinner in her house which near by student house. It's actually the new house she and her brother family stay in. This was the first time we went there.

Actually I eaten already but I still wanted to go because I am the type of person don't like to leave out. And I ate a bit because I wanted to try the food she cooked. Overall were quite nice and more feeling like being at home.

When reached 8.30pm, we switched off the light and light up a number of candle . It's just like a romantic dinner ,but actually was not. Anyway this was a different experience.

Later we played a game and it was fun and excited. It was full of laughing and really chilled out. The game using the uno card to play. It's hard to explain using words(perhaps my English not good so I can't explain well.

Even though my homework not yet finish, but I felt I ok with it because I gained a different experience again.